another year passed. it was time to move again.
she did not ask about reuniting this time.
she moved in with a lovely, gentle woman in a narnia house in a new neighborhood.
many things remained the same. some things grew worse.
he was not truthful in much. he told her what he thought she wanted to hear.
she knew that he knew that she knew. he lied anyway.
she knew he didn’t go see the former lady friend to simply visit.
the lady at the park was likely a new source of sympathy. or money.
they went to a meeting where another man of god told of being raised from the dead.
the man looked into his eyes for a long time.
“it’s not too late for you,” he said. he did not respond.
she went to the local pool one weekend.
she finished a lap and rested on the edge of the pool.
she was so tired. no one could see she was crying in the water.
papa god began to speak.
“it is true that you would be further along in your relationship if he had made better choices. you have done all that i have asked you to do and more.
i need you to keep moving forward. your destiny depends on it.”
she sighed. it was true. all of it. she agreed.
she did not know what that looked like. she just said, ‘yes.’
things grew progressively worse with him. different than before. tenuous and tense.
soon, there was another conversation with papa god another weekend afternoon.
he was more serious this time. there was deep concern in his voice. concern for her.
“he can no longer have access to you until he is submitted to me. his negativity is killing you.”
he was right. her whole body was inflamed. her strength was depleted.
it would take several months to walk this out. but she did.
when the next move came, it was different than the others.
this move was thirty miles away.
he had no license, no car. there was no regular bus service.
he had no access.
this move brought her rest. she began to sleep at night. she began to heal.
she began to move forward into her destiny as papa god had promised.
there was progression through obedience.
it was a good move.
(copyright 2016 jane doe)